Lukas Ford

I need change in my life...and even though I have an audition to think about, in the upcoming weeks, I was thinking...

Would anyone be willing to perhaps...set me up on a blind date, if possible?

Edit: Sorry, everyone...I'll just stop.

Wow. I'm starting to realize how close I am to graduating, given that I have sent in my college application to Julliard. I still have 15 days to turn in the paperwork but it was better to get it out of the way so I can just focus on my audition piece.

Funny...for some reason I was in the mood to watch "Save the Last Dance"...what a coincidence. Anyway, random thought aside, I'm 31 days until my live audition. Except unlike Sarah Johnson, I don't have any support. However, I know I got this...dancing is my life and I am more than ready to further my dancing career.

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I can't say that I'm surprised by what's happened. Finny was having second thoughts about the relationship or something like that...so I pulled the plug because he wanted time to be alone and he was finding it odd that he wasn't sleeping around anymore. Almost 3 months with him and he pulls this shit...

I gave him everything...and what do I have to show for it? Not a goddamn thing! And then he tells me that he's sad and that he needs me. No, fuck him! Where was he when I needed him because of the sadness that he caused me? I deserve someone who is completely happy with me and would think that I was more than enough.

I'm just so fucking pissed and I don't have anyone to talk to about this! I just...I just want to go home and confide in my parents but they never talk to me anymore. I just need to finish this school year and then I'll be free to do as I please and be away from everyone that doesn't care about me...which is everyone.
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Dancing used to be such a great release and now, I fear that it's doing nothing for me. I need to find a new way to relieve stress, that's healthy. Perhaps I'll go out and get some books to read, or a bunch of movies. Yeah, shopping would definitely help.

Anyone wanna cuddle?

I am now taking applications.

( Just Thinking About Us )

Can some of us get together and learn this dance. Seriously, this is like one of the best mash ups EVER!!!!

We can walk it out like Bob Fosse. ;)

Sometimes, I don't know why I even bother to care anymore...

It was silly to think that "they'd" care to contact me. I just set myself up for the disappointment and have no one to blame but myself for the way I feel right now. Oh well, at least I'll be getting to spend some of my break in Hawaii and that'll help make things easier.

Deep breaths...it's nothing new.

Calling the dancing inclined!!

I've been running ideas in my head and I want to choreograph a dance. Movement style will mainly be ballet, but with hints of modern/contemporary. Musical choice will be Monster by Paramore. I want to mesh ballet with rock music. I think we could have some great things happen.

If you are interested in this, let me know.

I hate that when I go to the stores that some places already have Christmas stuff up. Can we just say that it's fucking ridiculous! Do people really decorate at this time of year? I thought people usually waited for Thanksgiving...

I swear, pretty soon they'll just have Christmas items for sale all year round. Anyway...mini-rant done! I think I will be going out somewhere tonight, in costume! Should be a good time.

Blah...

This was a pretty great weekend. Hung out with a few friends, got drunk off my ass. Sure...Sunday could have been better given that I was sleeping all day trying to get rid of my hangover but it went away by the evening/night. It could have been worse, I could have thrown up, but I didn't. So cheers to that! =D

Anyway, I was contemplating a duet for the future...but I've decided that making it into a solo would be best. Now I just need to get to the studio and dance it out...and I also need to find a lighting designer and stuff.

Boo to classes but whatever...

( I'm Trying To Not Suck As A Person )

Who: Lukas and Jake
What: Watching a movie
Rating: PG-13

( New Friends... )

I never thought that I'd actually miss school. God, this place is so boring and the TV only gets like...7 channels. It needs to be tomorrow afternoon so I can just be back at Oxton.

Not looking forward to catching up, though. C'est la vie, right?


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( As You Wish... )

Warning for: Drugs, alcohol, & suicide attempt
[ooc: i apologize for not putting a warning before, it wasn't my intent to upset anyone. If it's that much of a problem, I will delete it.]

If anyone has a problem with me, tell me to my face!

Don't sit there and use the 'anonymity' of the internet to tell me to shut up! If I wanted any of you to stop what you were doing, it'd be to your face, or at least so that you'd know it was me. You know, I may be dealing with a lot of shit right now and yeah, none of you would care to hear it...so just block me. I really don't care who reads my messages or not...I'm using this to freaking vent because it's a hell of a lot better than hurting myself (even if some of you probably want me to go that route).

So, have a problem with me...tell me...I'll make a note of it and move on. Thanks.

At this rate, I'm just gonna burn out before the month is over. Does anyone else wish that could be anywhere but here?

But wishing doesn't get us anywhere, does it? Neither does being open and honest. Gotta take some sort of action...

Does anyone know if its possible for me to get a job while attending classes here?

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Ringtone

Hey, this is Lukas' phone. I'm busy or just don't feel like picking up my phone. Deal with it!

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( Without Dance, I Would Die...And Be A Total Asshole )